Whenever I sit down to write this post I get distracted by work, or email, or cookie dough, or any of the millions of other things that sound more appealing than talking about the last several months of my life. But after a long spell of avoidance, it’s time to start taking care of my blog again. I have missed sharing the stories, photos, and food that cobble together my days.
I love blogging, and of all my hobbies, it’s the most like the canary in the coal mine of my mind. When life gets tough, my blog goes dark. I suspect this is true for many bloggers, since it can be scary to share the not-so-nice parts of your life with the internet. But life isn’t always nice, and things don’t always work out the way you want. And even though it scares me, I think it’s okay to blog about that, too.
All of this is leading up to the announcement that Rami and I aren’t together anymore. At least, we’re not living together anymore and I’m not sure whether our marriage is going turn out, or how.
If you know Rami and me in real life or if you’ve been reading this blog for some time, you know that food (and by extension, this blog) has been a huge part of my marriage. Rami inspired and encouraged me to pursue my passion for cooking, and he has served as recipe guinea pig, dinner date, photographer’s assistant, and dish washer to support my blog as well. He has also been my best friend for the past seven years. The hardest thing I’ve ever learned is that a deep friendship is not enough to sustain a marriage.
Out of respect for him and for my privacy, I am not going to discuss the specifics of our relationship any further in this space. From here on out I’ll be sharing the new world I’m building for myself. This include redefining my relationship with cooking (for one), relearning to do my own dishes (by hand), and navigating the treacherous waters of dining and drinking in Austin alone (with a camera). I don’t have many words to share yet, but I have been taking lots of pictures lately. If you follow me on Twitter or Instagram these aren’t new, but I think they offer a hopeful glimpse into what’s shaping up to be a beautiful life.
i’ve missed your posts, kathryn! since the first day i came across your blog i’ve been in love and inspired. i know you will get through this and come out the other end better. i’m not a sappy religious person, but i really do think things work out the way they are meant to. (but that doesn’t mean we should be lazy. just that once you’ve given something everything you’ve got, and then some, maybe it’s time to move on and learn and grow from it.) you know i’m here for you, anytime you are in town i’m always up for a photoshoot and a drink or 2. or 5. i can’t wait to see what you come up w/ next for your blog. i’ll be waiting (im)patiently.
Thank you so much, Kristin. Your support is much appreciated– as is that offer for drinks. I’ll probably be in Dallas around August or September, and I’ll definitely let you know so that we can meet up.
Welcome back! I am excited for all that is still to come for you… both in life and the tidbits of you that we get through your blog. I’ve missed your excitement and energy in this space and am happy that you are “through the woods” enough to allow yourself it.
Thanks, lady! It was great catching up at the swap the other night. I hope I see you again soon!!
It was such a nice surprise to see your post in my reader.
So sorry to hear you’re going through so much but hope this is a positive in your life. You’re right that it’s hard to discuss the negative personal on the blog, but I think it’s also important to remember that negative stuff doesn’t mean you’re failing. And most people want the chance to help.
Cute hairdo!
Jenn, you’re the second person to remind me that change doesn’t equal failing. I am really struggling to remember that, so I appreciate the support.
Hey girl – just wanted to say life has great things in store for you. Thinking good thoughts for you as you take this journey. Anytime you need a drinking/eating companion, I’m happy to oblige
Thank you, Michelle.
Can’t wait until you’re back in the country so that we can catch up.
Sending lots of love your way…
Much appreciated, Addie.
Dear Kathryn,
Sorry to hear your news, but always remember that, no matter what, many people are in your corner. Come see us next time you’re in Dallas.
:-{D}
I’m so sorry that you are going through a tough time, Kathryn, and that you have the courage to share that here. Your blogger community is rooting for you!
Kathryn, I am so glad you are blogging again. I have missed your blog. I am thinking about you right now during this time. I look forward to hearing about what you are up to and how things are going.
Welcome back my sweet friend. Great things are out there for the taking and I have no doubt you will get through these muddy waters and before long you will be free styling through some cool crystal clear waters. Love you, K
Thinking of you … remember good friends and food will be there to get you through … along with a few drinks!
A brave and beautiful post, just like my brave and beautiful friend, Kathryn.
(Now answer my messages, darnit. ; } )
I have hidden in darkness during tough times and stepping back into the full sunshine takes courage. I can’t wait to see what you gift us when you fully emerge from your cocoon. Blessings!!
OH, Kathryn, I’m sorry for the rough time you’re going thru. I’m sending good energy your way!
PS if you need a “date” for any dining/drinking excursions, you just let me know!